Everyone needs a friend. Everyone needs to feel important. To know that someone in the world would miss them.
I go through waves of feeling social and feeling deprived of social life. This last week has been the week of deprivation. The week hasn’t been any different from any of the previous weeks. My schedule was the same. I spend the mornings getting the kids dressed, packing my bags for work, and doing preschool with Lily. Then I go to work, coming home for lunch. I come home in time to put my kids in bed.
Please don’t get me wrong. I am very grateful for my job. It has been a blessing to us these last two years. I love designing, and I’m starting to love my new coworkers.
It’s hard working retail hours, though. People forget that I work on Saturdays, and that I also work nights. Sometimes, people seem offended that I won’t be able to attend their parties. Believe me, I want to attend parties, and sporting events. I want to be more social. But I also have to be responsible . . . which means keeping my job so we can pay our bills.
I yearn to feel connected to those around me.
3 comments:
I know what you mean. Ben works "bank hours" which aren't late as retail hours, but he isn't home until 6:30 or 7 usually. With all the Microsoft husbands around, people seem to think a husband should be home from work and ready to spend time with the fam by like 4:30 or something. Sometimes I get a little jealous. It's hard to miss out on stuff.
It seems to go in cycles for me...sometimes I feel connected to my friends and family and have someone to talk to or hang out with and then other times nothing.
If you ever want to talk I'm always here for you! :)
I get that feeling sometimes too, since Patrick works evenings and can't automatically watch the kids if I have an invitation. I hope you are finding a way to feel connected :)
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