3” tall

Everyday, we each try to do our best with the limited knowledge and experiences that we’ve had. Sometimes the judgment calls we make are right. Other times, we miss the mark.

I try to trust my intuition when it comes to people. But what if intuition is wrong?

We moved a few weeks ago, so I’m at a new store with new coworkers and new customers. I normally try to be social and get to know people. However, I spend my breaks pumping in a private room, and go home for lunch so I can spend time with my family and nurse Zeke.

All of that makes it hard to get acquainted with new coworkers.

A few of my coworkers have gone out of their way to introduce themselves to me. Especially the lead generators. (Lead generators are the people that try to sell you on at home services, like windows, siding, or roofing quotes.)

There’s a certain man, that comes across as a used car salesman. I just get an uncomfortable vibe from him. So I decided to avoid contact with him as much as possible. Only to find out that that is easier said than done.

I have to walk through his department everyday when I come in to work. I’m normally on the phone with Scott, so I don’t feel obligated to say hello to this man. I’ve even considered parking by the other store entrance in hopes of avoiding this man.

Well, a few days ago, this man approached me outside the break room. He asked if he had introduced himself to me. I gave a wishy-washy answer of “I think so.” He then went on to ask if he had done anything to offend me, because he was sensing “negative energy” towards himself.

That’s when I felt myself shrinking to about 3” tall. I wished I could have continued to shrink out of sight.

I couldn’t tell the man the truth. How do you tell someone that you think they’re a slimy used car salesman? So I did the only mature thing that came to mind: I lied. I apologized for not being outgoing and proceeded to explain how I have 2 young children at home . . . . blah, blah, blah.

I’m sure he could tell I was making things up. I’ve never been very good at lying. But I did end it by promising to be more friendly in the future. (There are times when I hate that I’m a people pleaser.)

I still want to honor my intuition by keeping my distance as much as possible, but I’ll try to at least acknowledge his existence.